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Blood for the Blood God
03:31
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I’m always dozing away (I’m always dozing away)
but I'm constantly (constantly)
On the edge of my seat and I can't fall asleep
Feels like I’m losing the day
I’ve never counted sheep (never counted sheep)
I've just routinely (routinely)
Tripped over my feet, my alarm on repeat
I just don't know me
For so long
Things just haven't changed
Cut all the lies that I said to myself
Maybe I'm to blame
For so long
I could say it's the weather
Cut all the lies that I said to myself
Don’t hold your breath
I’m just waiting on progress
And if I’m being honest (if I’m being honest)
I’m just scared of the truth (so scared, so scared)
All those things that I said, that I meant to myself
I never saw them through
And everything I've said
Will never pay my debts
That i owe my friends
Who haven't left me yet
And everything I've said
Will never pay my debts
That i owe my friends
For so long
I know I haven’t changed
Cut all the ties that I said to myself
I know that I'm to blame
For so long
I could say it’s the weather
Cut all the lies that I said to myself
I want to get better
I want to get better
I want to get better
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I got this tightness pushing on my throat
And I’ve got these feelings that I can’t let go
I’m causing all this friction that I can’t undo
I’m not ready to see this through
I got this…
I’m gonna need a glass of water
We’re gonna be here for a while
I thought this all out in the shower
Now my words won’t come out right
I’m gonna need a glass of water
We’re gonna be here for a while
I thought this all out in the shower
Now my words won’t come out
And I never wanna feel this way again
I’m tired of worrying all my friends
Cause when they ask about my plans
I just start mumbling nonsense
And I never wanna feel this way again
I’m tired of worrying all my friends
Cause when they ask about my plans
I got this aching deep inside my bones
And I’ve got these thoughts
That I just can't shake loose
My mind is hazy but I know the truth
I think it’s time that I pay my dues
You’re gonna need a glass of water
We’re gonna be here for a while
If you keep running, why even bother?
And I’m not scared if this ends tonight
You’re gonna need a glass of water
We’re gonna be here for a while
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3. |
Unclench Your Jaw
01:38
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Face is just for show
Don’t undermine the process
We're not getting younger
And I think that's all you know
Failing, Fail again, Waiting
You’re so wound up on faking progress
You always bring a minor note
Unclench your jaw
Breath in breath out
It’s not your fault
The pressure to be someone you aren’t
If we let it go
Hey!
So let pride go
Then you can swallow
It’s not over till we say it's over
It’s not over till we say it's over
It’s not over till we say it's over
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I wanna know when it left us was it even there all along?
Was I too stoned to get the punchline?
Did you plan this to be so cold?
You don’t smile like you used to
And I can’t bear this anymore
We both know this isn’t like you
And I can’t love you anymore
Better days were when I had my youth ahead of me.
And everything slips away cause I’m always half asleep
I wanna know when it left us was it even there all along?
I wanna know when i found it,
Could you see it there from the start?
Better days were when I had my youth ahead of me
And everything slips away cause I’m always half asleep
Better days were when I had my youth ahead of me
Now everyday is yesterday, cause I'm always half asleep (cause I'm always half asleep)
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5. |
It's a Kinkade!
02:58
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Out of reach, out of sight
That’s the mindset
We’re all stuck
Feeling empty, feeling older
Tell your friends that you are fine
Never better, never over
Desperate wishing all the time
On the run, left behind
Try to hide it
That’s your lie
I could see it, I still knew you
Lost your sunspots; I felt blind
To the answers, to the right thing
I feel guilty; don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I drove by the same place
That you said “I’m trying
to stop it from taking
my mind and my body”
I picture the future
That you couldn’t see through
I fall back to my dreams
To tell you I love you
I drove by the same place
That you said “I’m trying
to stop it from taking
my mind and my body”
I picture the future
That you couldn’t see through
I hold on to regrets
That I couldn’t stop you
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On the year you passed, I sat there waiting
For comfort to wake me up
From my displacement to make me better
Looking at the past, I can’t stop thinking
Of the doorframe to your room
And I how I should have knocked more while it was standing
You're still here
Even without your things I feel
Your presence won't leave me and my thoughts
I wonder how you felt
Help me
To understand your pain
I've lost myself in these past regrets
But I won't think that way anymore
I think I’m slowly coming to terms
With every ounce of my body
And everything that I've been through
The burden of absence didn't teach me anything
I just learned how to float trying not to sink
Lying on this grass, I don't know anything
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7. |
Joan of Hill
04:11
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I was walking on my own
Leaving the space, that’s gotta count for something
I still feel it in my bones
Hear ‘em rattling, but hey it’s better than nothing
Bad dreams take comfort in familiar sounds
That means first place on your way to the ground
If you need me, you can find me at the self- checkout
And if you lose me, I was already on my way out
And god knows that we’d be happy
If we didn’t owe landlords our money
God knows that I'd be happy
If I could just wake up from having
Bad dreams take comfort in familiar sounds
That means first place on your way to the ground
If you need me, you can find me at the self- checkout
If you lose me, I was already on my way out
Running afraid of everything
Like I don't know what's happening
Another day, it's all the same
Like it ever mattered anyway
Recycled pace designed to break
Throw me away
It was always my fate
I'm scared that's all there is (Bad Dreams)
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Ben Quad Oklahoma
emo band and also butt rock band.
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